It's been 5 years!!!

Every year that passes I still am in disbelief that this sweet boy came out of my body into the arms of love. My kids still remember baby Finn and how Sam's tummy was broken and Mommy helped by using her tummy. A day after my birthday is his ♡ 

 

(My nephew and I) 

(Watching fireworks)

The innocence of children speaks volumes and the acceptance and love that they have for one another. They don't look at the little pieces that adults do. Some people think it's a wonderful beautiful thing and others have so much judgment it actually hurts the ones that they love instead of loving. Accepting! 

The family and I still keep in contact. Life gets busy but it is a blessing and a comfort having someone Hold Your Hand throughout your life knowing the things that you went through together. Having that bond with somebody over something so precious is really a gift. I'm very lucky that I was able to experience this journey without having a negative effect. And it is because I put the time into it and so did the family.

I have had people ask me about surrogacy .. and if I would do it again and under a special circumstance I can say I would. I have had people ask for themselves to do it and I come to realize that information is very Gray. People don't really understand everything that happens or they just assumed. But in some situations it is a good fit for an individual to do this as well as families to go forward as IP. ( intended parents). 

With that said I am so happy and blessed that I still get to watch him grow up. His family is still making fingerprints on my life and being there for one another just checking in is a blessing in itself. Grandma sent me a video on my birthday. This made me so happy. 

So now today is his birthday. 5 years ago a little boy was born into a world of love. He has a special place in my life and in my heart that will never change. He is the change I wanted to see in the world. He is the giving of selflessness that I wanted to see in this world. And with that I made the decision to be that change. It's one of the very few things I can stand by without a doubt knowing that I would never change it because it is completely good. 

 If you believe in something enough and work at it anything is possible. 

Happy birthday Finnegan

Love you